Plan B

Ok. I guess we have established that I am not much of a blogger.  But if you think my blogging skills are bad, you should see how I am at housework :) Life, once again, has slowed me down.  Trying to get my mojo back a bit with this whole writing thing.  Trying to get my courage and my confidence up a little too.I've started writing something new, which is good and bad.  It's good because I need to focus on some new characters, with new issues and new personalities.  It is bad because I still have no closure on the first book. My hubs keeps telling me that I just have to blast out a hundred query letters and see what happens.  This sounds much easier than it is.  First of all, blasting out even one query letter is scary.  Second, what if they all say no.  What then?  I am not sure.But wait...there is another option. Another option I tells ya.There is Plan B. Now, I know what you're thinking. No, not Plan B!  Plan B is bad. Plan B allows you to give up on Plan A.  Don't give up on Plan A.  Plan A is your dream.Here's the problem with Plan A.  Yes, Plan A is sexy. Plan A is dangerous. Plan A has some teeth to it.  But don't be deceived.  Plan A has some definite chinks in its armor.  Plan A has never been a sure thing. Plan A is a hobby. Waiting on Plan A to come to fruition is like playing the lottery and hoping you will win.  Plan A is a crap shoot.  Plan A is wishing and hoping. I can't depend on Plan A to put my kids through college...and yes, sadly, I am getting old enough that this is a concern. WAHHHHHHHH!Which brings us back to Plan B.  Don't be so hard on Plan B.  It's going to take a little while but, fingers crossed, it will result in some form of gainful employment. Plan B is solid and sturdy. Plan B will allow me (hopefully) to have the same schedule as my kids and to continue to be a part of their lives.  Plan B is the right way to go....I am sure of it.Maybe.

The Hard is What Makes it Great

A brand new year.
I can't believe another year has already gone by.

Last January, I made the decision to press on with my book in hopes of publication.
I am still not published...but I will be.

For me, 2011 was definitely a year of learning. I learned that I am not at all eloquent when it comes to discussing my book or my ideas with other people. I am totally out of practice at being an adult. (I attribute this to the past decade of my life being spent with children - at home and at work.) Even if I never get published, I need to find a day job that is firmly rooted in the adult world - with adult conversation, adult problems.

I also went through a ton of rejection this year - and not meaningful rejection - it felt like rejection for rejection's sake, rejection based on a few lines of a query letter.
But I am undeterred. I am going to keep going, keep reaching. I am going to stay positive!!
  

I firmly believe that you have to work hard for anything worth having - which reminds me of the quote from the movie "A League of Their Own" -

"It's supposed to be hard. If it wasn't hard, everyone would be doing it. The hard is what makes it great."

I can place getting published squarely in this category.

So 2012...here I come.

Eyes open, arms open, heart open.

Bring on the hard!!

2012

Resolutions:

1. Complain less.

2. Love More.

3. Forgive.

4. Forget.

5. Cry Less.

6. Laugh More.

7. Write.
8. Take a moment each day to breathe, listen, notice, appreciate, soak up, drink in, and
    enjoy LIFE.